A letter to myself

I used to have a letter I wrote to myself and when I was feeling low I'd seek it out and give it a read. I couldn't find it but found some old poetry (not sure it counts as poetry?) stuffs - thought I'd share a few over the next few days. Starting with one …

‘Loving yourself is a daily practice’

TW: Eating disorders, self-harm. Yo hey hellooo, I have been binge watching Ru Pauls drag race and it is legit the best damnn thing I am having a great time (whilst avoiding all assignments and pressing issues because avoidance is ma fav). So Ru is full of quoteables and really, just has improved my daily …

‘Becoming emotionless’

Hellooo, So a whole month has jumped between posts and this time it was completely unintentional as it had genuinely only felt like it was just a week since *tried not to freak out about life passing before my eyes and eventually leading to being 97 in my rocking chair*. Just as a quick side …

‘When the dust settles’

Hello. Long time no see? I know. Of all my attempts and wants to maintain a blog, I left it to the back of everything for five months. The fact that its been five months is a bit mad when I think about it because in some respects it only feels like a few weeks. …

‘What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger’

(Dare you to say that without singing it) TW: Suicide, self-harm, depression. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. You made it through, look how strong you are? You've got to be strong! I wanted to write a 'well me' vs 'unwell me' and how our perspective is altered depending on the day and how …

‘Ah ah ah ah, staying alive’

TW: self harm, suicide, substance misuse. Ok so by now I'm sure you may have guessed I am a sucker for dry humour and 'making light' at myself / how I'm feeling (I'm hoping you've realised or you have not been paying attention / I'm terrible at humour).. Either way, that is just how I …

‘The first step is ALWAYS the hardest’

  The first step is always the hardest..how often do we tell ourself this and how often do we tell other people this? I mean, not for want of anything more but to be helpful and supportive. 'You've taken the first step..well done!' Today, in group therapy someone said to me...*drumroll* 'There is only one …

H..e..a..l..i..n..g..

  CW: Suicidal thoughts, depression, childhood trauma. : to make well again : to restore to health : to make free from injury or disease : to make sound or whole : to cause (an undesirable condition) to be overcome : mend Healing. What is healing? This may seem like a bit of a silly …

‘Tick tock tick tock tick tock’

'This year is going SO quick!' 'Can you believe it's September already?' 'I say this EVERY year but this year I mean it' 'It's like I blinked and the whole month went!' 'Hehe almost Christmas!' (I don't mind this one as much because ❤ crimbo) Why oh why, my fellow Britainoiates (Brit-o-ney-ates, my own word) …

‘The plant that never dies’

Here I am, back again with another weird analogy...because really, who would I be without them? This week I have had a bit of a 'blip' (that makes it sound a bit niceer doesn't it?) a blip, lapse, step back..just an overall poop couple of days. I would say it peaked Monday when I found …